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Posted in Uncategorized on April 14, 2011 by bigredcandle

i am so rebel, i am on my blog in maths, when i am not supposed to be XDDD


Wintersun ~ Sadness and Hate

Posted in Uncategorized on April 10, 2011 by bigredcandle

Sad night, the weeper of starwind sky
Take me where the shimmering lights are fading out
Through the shadows of hate and through the fires of grace
I followed the voice in the night, beautiful as black sky,
But nothing I found

My thoughts are captured by the magical chants
Of the spirits, but I cannot see them with these dead eyes
Lost I am in these dismal streams
Lost I am forever in my life

The snow is falling on the withering leaves, I am left in the cold
The shadows are crying in the moonlight
Is this night the last of my life

Have we arrived from our journey, I must ask you now
At last I can cry, ’cause these sad words are calling me tonight
My eyes bleed for you my star, my pride and the love of my heart
But why did you had to fly so far, I raged and it tore me apart
I promise to you with sadness and hate
Wherever I might go, you will know…

I give my life to the withering leaves
To the bleeding moonlight
To the crying shadows

life sucks

Posted in Uncategorized on April 10, 2011 by bigredcandle

We’re all trapped.

Each of us is stuck being who we are. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but
ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we

If you’re a happy person, you don’t feel trapped. If you’re surrounded by people who you
love and who love you, if you can do what you want to do in life, if you are at peace with
who you are, why would you ever feel trapped? You wouldn’t want to change yourself, you
wouldn’t need to try.

If you’re a happy person, hey, you got lucky! Go back to the previous page, you’ll find
nothing of interest here.

I am not a happy person. Maybe you’re not either. Maybe you’re too fat, or too thin, too old,
or too young. Maybe you’re ugly and nobody wants to sleep with you. Maybe everyone
wants to sleep with you, but nobody loves you and it’s all meaningless. Maybe your body is
fucked up and you’re in pain all the time. Maybe your mind is fucked up and you’re in pain
all the time.

So you struggle with all these problems year after year, and you’re getting nowhere, and
you wonder if anything will ever change. And the unavoidable reality of it all is that, for you,
life sucks.

But of course you’re not going to give up so easily, you’re going to keep struggling to
solve your problems, to change yourself, to find happiness, wherever it is, whatever it is.
But still, life sucks.

And you see all these people out there who are blissfully free of your problems, and if they
can do it, there must be some way for you to as well. But they aren’t doing you any good at
all, they don’t understand what it’s like being you, and what good would it do you if they did

So, the forces which created you, random or otherwise, have spoken. And they’ve
determined that, for you, life sucks.

we are all Fucked up.

Posted in Uncategorized on April 10, 2011 by bigredcandle

We’re a fucked up species, striving to be healthy and happy
while simultaneously destroying ourselves and each other in a million different ways.

The only positive note I can end this on is that it’s better to understand all this than to be
ignorant of it, I think.

god does not love you

Posted in Uncategorized on April 10, 2011 by bigredcandle

Let’s assume, for a moment, that there is a God. We may not know the nature of God, or
which religion comes closest to the truth, but we can be sure of one thing:

God does not love you.

Look at all the cruelty and misery in the world, which God does nothing to stop. Right now,
as you are reading this, there are children in various places around the world being raped
and tortured. Most of us would risk our lives, give up our lives, to save them if we could.
God stands by and does nothing. God has abandoned these children, and clearly does not
love them. God does not love you, either.

There are some religions which claim that “God’s love is a different kind of love”, which is
supposed to explain and justify what appears to be God’s divine indifference. This is total
bullshit. If I claim that I love my neighbor, and then set his house on fire and shoot him in
the head, anyone can see that my “love” is not love at all.

Another fallacy along these lines is the statement that, “God doesn’t give us more than we
can handle in life”. This is a ridiculous statement. Go to a mental institution, go to the ward
for those who are seriously disturbed, and you’ll see people who just sit and rock back and
forth all day, staring off into space, or screaming at nonexistant terrors. God has given
them more than they could handle, and now they’re totally broken.

So you have no loving God watching over you, making sure you get what you need. You
don’t get what you need in life, you don’t get what you want, you don’t get what you
deserve. You get what you get.

Spyro 2: Ripto’s Rage.

Posted in Uncategorized on April 10, 2011 by bigredcandle

Ripto’s Rage is the second game in the Spyro the dragon series, which started with Spyro the dragon in 1998. The protagonist of the series, Spyro, is placed in the land of Avalar, rather than the Dragon Worlds, where the previous installment was set. A dinosaur-riding sorcerer, known as Ripto, has invaded the world of Avalar, and is wreaking havoc on its citizens with his magic. The player, as Spyro, must travel through the world of Avalar and undo the damage done by Ripto.

The game became available for download on the Playstation Network on July 26, 2007, even before its predecessor was released to the same market. Less than a week later, however, it was removed because Colossus and Idol Springs levels failed to load. On April 17, 2008, It was released on the Japanese PlayStation Store. On May 7, 2009, a corrected version of the game became available for download from the North American PlayStation Store. It is yet to be re-released to the european stores.


Posted in Uncategorized on April 10, 2011 by bigredcandle

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